Monday, May 14, 2012

What a difference a year makes...

One year ago yesterday, I was in the hospital having a D&C.   We had lost our fourth child.  We didn't celebrate Mother's Day last year because it was too tough for me.  While I will always hurt for the babies we have lost, I am so so so grateful for our two boys with us now.  Mother's Day to me means so much more than just being showered with love from my husband and boys.  It is a day for me to step back from the chaos that is often our household to say "Wow, I am so lucky to be able to be a MOM."  It is a tough job with more responsibility than I often like to think about, but I wouldn't trade the job of being a mom for anything in the world.

We are proud parents and while we are really the parents of five kiddos when people ask how many kids we have the answer is "two, right now."  Most people assume that we mean we may have another baby.  And while that is true, it also means quietly to us that we don't get the opportunity to enjoy the other three.  Someday.  

Back to boys had a beautiful arrangement of flowers delivered on Friday and I was completely shocked.  I love my husband dearly, but flowers are not something that show up on our doorstep often.  It was really sweet.  I got to sleep in until 8:00 a.m. yesterday (that is very late for our household of early risers) and Jeff was busy with Tyler in the kitchen making breakfast.  I could get used to that!  :)  Then the boys and I went to church while Jeff stayed home to work on the hardwood floors he is installing in the living room.  We spent the afternoon at my parents so the boys could nap (the air compressor and nailing in the living room would make nap time tough at home).  In the evening we enjoyed a summer time feast at mom and dads.   It was a perfect day!  What a difference a year makes!

Speaking of moms - I have the best!  I am not sure what I would do without her and I don't just mean her watching my kids a LOT.   She has taught me more than any school ever could...from how to walk to how to drive and most importantly how to love.  I am one lucky lady.  

Tyler and Nathan are lucky to have amazing grandmas too.  My mom and mother in law shower my kiddos with love and attention that causes Tyler to constantly request to go to grandmas. 


  1. Glad you had a great day this year! You deserve it! Can't wait to see the new floors :)

  2. You deserved such a special day! I hope some day you do get to play with those 3 babies hanging out with Jesus right now! Love you friend, and I can't wait to meet Mr. Nathan! Are you available the last week of June?!?!?!